p, the one instagram mutual i have who followed me because we were both active in the james perry johnson kingdomofoasis comment section, texted me if i got a text from him (james) recently and i looked and i had a text from him (but no notification) that was a photo of some italian soup in a big pot and it said something like You're invited to a cookout / event at my place, come :) so me and P went there and the other people there were a southeast asian looking girl (she had zofie malinova vibes like very early/mid 2010s cool girl baddie vibes) and a super tall guy with a mullet and moustache (but he didn't rly look like the typical alt hipster gen z mullet moustache guy) and the way P looked in the dream (bc i don't know what he looks like irl) was a bit like my music nerd oomf TV so like a tall slightly bigger guy with glasses and blonde hair? and it was just the 4 of us hanging out in james' room/apartment which was in a weird multifunction type of building that was a mall, cinema/theater and dance/ball venue at the same time? it looked a bit like mzk and scala as well but it also had storefronts like a mall?? and his apartment was just 1 room that had mattresses on the ground so that it covered the entire length of one wall which is where we half sat/half laid down and he gave us the italian soup from the photo and we were just talking… and i think it was like 50/50 he talked about religion and quran gold wheel article etc his delusions, but also just normal things that a normal person would talk about - and we were just trying to talk with him as normally as possible and it was so obvious that he really needed us to talk to him, like he really needed someone to talk about normal things with and he needed us to be there, and i don't remember exactly what he was telling us but i remember how it made me feel .. and he also said that he doesn't have many people coming to see him which made me sad, and he had a massive full trekking backpack and he said that he had a friend who lived in a remote cottage on a huge snowy mountain and that he needs to go there and we asked him isn't it dangerous and he said yes but i feel that i really need to make this journey to see my friend and we said well okay but take care of yourself it looks really hardcore and he was like Don't worry i'm well prepared :) and that was a bit scary because he obviously wasn't. and then we were about to leave and the asian girl cooked him some kind of soup that she said was her comfort food from her country, and it just looked like chicken/vegetable broth but it had more of a jelly texture?? not sure but he LOVED IT and he was so grateful and it was such a nice moment that we were able to do something for him and make him a little happy … and then we decided to head out so we went back by elevator to the main multifunction building (i think he lived on a basement floor) and me and the asian girl went to the bathroom and there were some teen girls preparing for dance lessons so she asked if i was going to sign up for dance lessons and i said No i'm too old for that now and i didn't even do them when we had them in high school lol. but then we went out with everyone and it was dark outside and it was literally just brno, it looked like the street pat broeker lives on but idk if it was actually it, and we said goodbye and one by one we all hugged james and we just went home by tram……

and i woke up and now it's evening but i couldn't stop thinking about this dream the entire day he was so kind to us and he looked so good and happy and healthy, he was clean shaven and he looked like my favourite screenshot i have of him (where he looks happy and healthy) and i genuinely can't remember most of the specific things we talked about but i just remember how it Felt…. and it's one of the first things i told P when we started texting (irl), that what i want to do when texting james is just tell him about the normal things in my life, like look at this photo from my walk, look at this cat i saw, it's already nice warm and sunny out in my country i hope you're doing well, etc… because i KNOW he reads his comment section which is just people feeding into his delusions and jokingly telling him to buy a gun because they don't realize (or care) that he's an actual person as well ,so i wanted to counter it at least a little bit with my texts.. and this entire dream just felt like that…. just being there with james and talking to him like normal people about normal things (and ofc he was also telling us about his kingdomofoasis things but that was like half of it) and it was so obvious that he really needed that, he needed someone to be a normal person with, and it felt so good to know that we were doing something For Him by being there and it was actually healing him and making him feel better and i hope he (in the dream…) realized that there are people out there who actually care about him as a person and want him to feel well and have a good life…

and it's just making me sad because i wish he felt the exact same in his real life as well… all i can think about is i wish i could do something for him!!!!! because everyone can see how much pain he's in… and i watch every video he uploads but i feel so awful about the entire situation and about me even watching it, nothing about this should be happening and it's all so awful. I love you james